Friday, May 17, 2013

A New Chapter


              People have been telling me not to worry about how the future would pan out ever since that day in July when I found out that my husband took a job in Dallas, Texas. We had been long distance for 6 years, through undergrad and law school days, and we were both ready to start our life together after marriage. I thought certainly the long distance would end once we said our "I DOs" and we could start the process of finding an apartment or a house.

           

            I didn't listen to people. Things would not work out and I was doubtful that I would ever have the courage to leave my students, who I have been teaching for 5 years in a row! I didn't want to leave my job in this uncertain economy, but I didn't want to be far away from my husband either. Months went by, and I informed my two building principals of the situation back in November. We knew there was always a chance Corey could be transferred to Philadelphia or Baltimore, so we were holding out hope.



            Meanwhile, I would pay airfare and travel for over 7 hours (a car ride to the airport, a flight, sometimes a connection, 2 shuttle busses, a train, and 2 subway stops) into the city to visit my husband in his studio apartment, where our full size mattress rested on the cool concrete floor and we had a lively view of the glowing city of Dallas. We enjoyed our adventures, albeit they were always short. Two or three days and then back to the plane and another 5-week goodbye until the next two or three day visit. It was exhausting. I wondered what it would be like to live together and be able to not take my clothes out of a suitcase all the time and how it would feel to clean together. I wanted to make him a meatloaf and potatoes after his long day at work. It sounds ridiculous, but I was getting desperate to be together.



            Corey told me to do all the necessary things to become certified to teach in the state of Texas. This apparently translates into being certified to do brain surgery. I was shocked at how my lifetime PA certificate, my 5 years experience, and my Masters degree didn't mean a thing. I had to sign up to take 2 five hour exams and fly down separate weekends in different months for each test. I had to pay over $500.00 and after all of this, I am still not certified to teach ESL, which is of course, my passion. I am, however, finally allowed to teach Grades 4-8 English. Oh great, I thought, I will be teaching Dear Mr. Henshaw and Island of the Blue Dolphins my entire career. So off I went on two of my visiting weekends, one in January and one in February, to arrive into Dallas late Friday night and be up by 6:00 Saturday to walk a mile to be patted down and searched to take this test. I spent 5 hours in a sterile room that made me long even more to be home in bed...sleeping quietly on a Saturday morning with my husband. Eventually I passed all of these requirements and went down in March and was fingerprinted by the state of Texas. That alone was a 3 hour, costly process.



            In February, during my weekend visit of the month, we sat through the best church sermon I had ever heard. I left there with tears in my eyes and the most overwhelming sense of freedom and peace. Peace that God was still in control and for the first time, I was OK with God telling me to go to Dallas. On our city walk that afternoon, I apologized to Corey for any bitterness and anger I was harboring about having to leave my comfortable life in Lititz, PA, to move to Texas, where the nearest family members are hours and hours away. I believe it was that day that set the plans in motion. I applied to countless districts in the Dallas metroplex. I was holding out hope for something good.



            Corey told me that his boss's boss is married to the head of HR for a big school district just south of Dallas. I was to talk to him on the phone and find out some information to help me choose where to focus my job search. He told me that I must take May 13th as a personal day to fly down for the Teaching Job Fair at the Arlington Convention Center. So I did. And I waited the few months still praying that I would not even need to go because something would be offered to me before that. I even had a phone interview with another school district. Nothing.



            May 13th...job fair time. My sweet husband had printed 50 resume packets for me down in Texas and clipped them all together, waiting for me to hand out at the job fair. I arrived 15 minutes early and was shocked and discouraged to see thousands of people already there, waiting in lines. Everything truly is bigger in Texas. The doors open and the VERY first person I see is Corey's boss's boss's husband...the head of HR. In the sea of people, his name badge stood out, and I went up to him and shook his hand firmly and smiled. I told him who I was and he knew to be expecting me there. He sat me down and made a list of all the districts to visit at the fair. I thanked him and walked away.



            First stop...a nice looking blonde woman with bright red lipstick speaks with me. She tells me I am not experienced enough with ESL (which is what I teach now and have a Masters degree in) and hands me back my resume. I am shocked and annoyed. I text Corey "this isn't going well." He writes back "keep going and keep looking- keep your head up." I visit 6 or 7 booths and at best get a business card to "call or email later" and I decide it is time to go back and see Corey's connection again. I go to the man from HR I saw and he asked how it was going. I give him a pathetic frown. He gets up and says in his deep booming southern voice "Follow me" and leads me to a table that I had already visited. A table that I had just left in despair because the old man told me to "go back to school to be a math teacher because that is what they needed." Trust me, sir, the world would not be a better place if I were left in charge to teach the youth of America math skills. But Corey's friend leads me to another woman at the booth representing that district... a polished, black lady with a kind smile, and a stylish haircut. He tells her "Listen, my wife just hired her husband to be an attorney in downtown Dallas. She needs to join him. Help this lady find a job." I gulped and next thing I know, I am sitting across from this nice lady telling her my interests and qualifications. Typically, if any on-spot interviews are to occur, they would do so at the job fair booth. Not in this case. The woman gets the idea to call a principal that works for her district and speak with him. She boldly asks the secretary of the school to put the principal on the line. Her words are this, "Excuse me, I am out here working hard for you sir, and I have found your next English teacher. Can you meet with her today before she flies back to Pennsylvania tomorrow?" All the while she has one finger in her ear because of the noise in the convention center. I can't believe what is happening. She puts down her phone and tells me I am all set. ALL SET?! WHAT JUST HAPPENED?



            Next thing I know, my phone is vibrating in my purse and a Dallas number shows up across the screen. I answer and it is the principal. He tells me to be at his school in two hours. I immediately had to make a decision. Was this worth leaving the job fair for? Should I have faith that this interview would be all I need? It would take about 45 minutes to get to the school, so I decided it was worth the risk. God is in control. I did have a few more contacts and a mini on the spot interview with a couple more districts before leaving.



            It was noon. I found myself walking up the sidewalk of the school in the 90 degree May heat shaking like crazy and my palms were sweating. The principal was a well-dressed, extremely distinguished looking man, about 6'2" at least. The interview was the most challenging interview I had ever had and it last one hour and 7 minutes. Yes, I was counting. He was a very nice guy, but I didn't think he wanted to really be interviewing today; he was pressured into it. In fact, as I left he told me he was not in a rush to hire anyone and would contact me in 2-3 weeks. Fair enough. I left somewhat depressed that I would be once again in limbo, waiting...waiting...



            Being that it was Mother's Day weekend and tickets were 150.00 round trip, mom was along to see Texas for the first time. After my interview, we drove around the neighborhoods, curious to see the area and any houses that had a "for sale" in their yard...just in case I were to land a job here. We pulled up outside a house and my phone rings. It is a Dallas number. I answer. "Hi, Bethany, I just talked to your current principals and read over everything and how would you feel if I offered you the job now?" NOW!?! What happened to 2-3 weeks? It was literally 10 minutes or so. I was shaking and jumped out of the car in front of this random house pacing outside the car like a madwoman. I told him I would have to think about it and talk to my husband, so he tells me to call him back on Wednesday with my answer. Just 2 days away.



            My mom tried to call the realtor's number on the sign in the yard. No answer. If you know my mother, she went and knocked on the door. I stayed in the car, dying of embarrassment. She waves me in. We learn quickly that the man who owns the house works in the SAME office as COREY, in downtown Dallas, which is about 25 minutes away. I am in disbelief. The owner of the house is moving back to Baltimore, Maryland to work in the SSA office up there. Mom and I tour the house quickly and I love it. First house I had ever seen as a potential buyer, so I was excited.



            We got shooed out because people were coming to look at it soon with the realtor and the house already had 2 offers in. It had only been on the market for 5 days... too late for us. We hadn't even talked about buying a home, I did not have a job yet technically, we had not "house-hunted" and we never talked to a realtor or a bank to be approved or pre-approved for a loan. The man gives us the lady assistant's business card and we call her. She can meet Corey and I at the house at 6:00. Since Corey was working, I called and told him there was an "OPEN HOUSE" - well there was not really, but I made him think that. :) We met this 89 lb. 4'2" spitfire, classy, sassy, white haired lady at the house at 6:00. We tell her we like the house, but are simply nowhere NEAR ready to buy one because we have not researched or prepared.



            It was at this point that Corey dragged my butt into the nice kitchen and told me, "Beth- we can't get this house. We don't have a realtor, we don't have a loan, and there are other offers already in. We are too far behind."  I pout and realize he is being honest. The realtor tells us the name of a loan officer and tells us she could try to see if we have time to work up an offer. The next morning, Corey and Barbara work up an offer to put in for the house. We discovered we were the 4th offer, I think. Did we really just put an offer in on a house? What?!?!



            Mom and I flew home Tuesday. It was a long day of traveling after a whirlwind trip and I was emotionally spent. I knew I had a big decision to make regarding this job by tomorrow! Ugh. I prayed all night. I did not tell anyone, but I prayed that I would not take this job unless God showed me a sign. Wednesday rolled around and I was putting off that phone call like the plague. I said "OK God, it is almost noon. I need a sign here."



            My phone rings. The principal is on the other line. His first words are "Ms. Fazekas, we want you on our team. Have you discussed the decision with your husband and made a choice?" I was thinking "WOW! This is kind of a sign! He called me!" I took a deep breath and said YES. Just after I said yes, my phone is beeping with another call. I can't cut off my new boss, so I just ignore it. I see it's a Dallas number, and I panic. What if it is a better offer? Did I just make a mistake? The phone beeps through AGAIN. Same number. I am dying and yet, trying to answer all of my new boss's questions with respect and composure. I hang up, and call the number back. It is Corey, calling from a different office phone. He asks why I wasn't answering. I told him I was on with the principal and he asks if I accepted the offer. I told him I did and he was thrilled. He then told me he had some news. He says calmly "Beth, we got the house. They accepted our offer." My jaw drops and my whole body got goosebumps. I burst into these tear drops of joy, disbelief, awe, shock. I said "no we didn't. We did not even have a chance and it was the first house we stepped into!" He repeated himself. We got the house. And he adds, "and ours was not even the highest offer they had."



            I wanted a sign from God. The very SAME phone call I was offered the job and accepted the job I was getting a call that the house was ours. I hung up the phone and told my mom and we screamed, cried, hugged, laughed, and praised God over and over again. How did I just get a job and a house in less than 48 hours? Why did I ever doubt that God would provide just what we needed, when we needed it?



            My emotions were a mess this week, as I am very heartbroken to have say goodbye to my friends, my relatives, my students, my co-workers, the community, my pets, and my immediate family. Today, with a sense of peace and strength, I handed in my resignation letter to a job I saw myself staying at for years to come. My students do not know yet, and I ask for prayer for that day.



            The realtor thought closing may not be until mid summer, again leaving me wondering about timelines, rents, leases, and storage for our things. Fear not. Closing is in one month! The very day I thought I would head to Texas to be with Corey for the summer anyway!!!!! God's timing is truly perfect. How easy to say for me, as it has been shown to me fully and I am on the other side of it. But, if you are going through some changes or have any doubts, I want to remind you to trust in God with all your heart...and He shall direct your paths. Some people would see this as fate, or coincidence, but I have no doubts that God had His hand on our story the whole time!



            Thanks for all of your support as we end this 7-year span of long distance. We truly appreciate all the prayers, too! Corey is so happy at his job in Dallas, and he is doing well. I am a bit hesitant to start a new job in a completely different school with demographics different from what I am used to, but I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Thanks for reading this, if you made it to the end: congratulations! You won a prize! Haha. And, if you are ever in the Dallas area, please feel free to stop by and say hello. I cannot WAIT to entertain in my very first kitchen!!!!!!!!! (I already told Corey I may or may not be sleeping in the kitchen during the first week!)

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Family Time

I just had to share this cute picture I snapped on my phone this past weekend. We went to our ring bearer's 3rd birthday party. Nicholas is Corey's cousin and he is so cute and such a mild mannered boy. He has a 7 month old brother, Matthew. I could not believe when I saw Corey playing with a baby!!! It was shocking! So I captured the moment:



Matthew and Corey playing with Sesame Street toys.

This boy's cheeks-- so in love.




Friday, March 2, 2012

A Tough Week

You know those days where you just should have stayed in bed all day? Well, I had one of those weeks. Yes, weeks.

While I would like to think of my blog has a positive, happy place- let's be honest, folks, sometimes life spits up on us.

This week started with a pretty good Monday-- fairly normal. I went to bed around 11:30 Monday night and in the middle of the night, I saw the hall light on. So I started calling "Julie? You OK?" And I heard back "It's mom." WHAT!? What are you doing here -2 hours from your own bed in the middle of the night on Monday? I said "what time is it?" and she answered "3 AM." Ouch. Julie was up feeling like she was going to die. I guess she called my dad and never woke me up. So then I was up for about 2 hours from 3-5 before I got up and went to work exhausted.
Julie ended up in the hospital overnight and most of Wednesday. I went to work tired and it turned out I was being observed for my professional evaluation that day. Fabulous timing. Then the fire alarm rang. And that was chaos. Then, that day ended with me helping a student with a terrible home situation, which I probably shouldn't discuss on here, but anyway, it ended with a meeting with the police and an arrest. Yeah, you know, just your average Tuesday.

So that night I skipped the gym because I was mentally and physically too tired to go to my cardio strength class.

Wednesday I caught a bad head cold that made me look like death at work and feel worse. One of my students asked why I blew my nose so hard because "it getting red." Yes, I know, thank you for pointing it out. But, then a boy named Dan, in 8th grade, made me a hug chunky caramel, chocolate chunk, pecan cookie that was A.MAZ.ING when he heard I was sick. Normally I wouldn't take a cookie from a teenage boy but this chocolate cookie was perfectly round, gooey, and, like an inch thick. It was calling my name. I swear, my middle school kids this year are the sweetest, most thoughtful students I have ever met.

Then, last night I was walking across my dining room on the evil wood floors in my socks and got a splinter (about an inch long) deep into my foot. I tried to dig and have, at this point, only removed 1/3 of it. I went to my cardio class though and limped around like an idiot. I greatly look forward to going to my parents tonight for someone to help dig at my tender, sore foot with needles and pins and tweezers while my head is throbbing and I can't stop sneezing.

But, as long as I can do that while holding Corey's hand, I should be fine. I miss him so much. It is getting harder and harder to be apart, which I thought wasn't possible anymore, but I really just want to live with him already. Less than 4 months people! Less than 4 months!!!!!!!!!


Thursday, February 23, 2012

Good eats!

Let's bring back some food posts, shall we?

This past weekend was 4 days long. 4 days. FOUR days. I loved it.
My Great Aunt Sharon & her hubby came down from Massachusetts, and I was able to cook for them and Corey. FYI: Parents are dieting, so they aren't so fun to cook for anymore! But, I am so PROUD of them!!

Anyway, I tried 3 NEW recipes, and also made an old stand by fav (Cor's favorite meat loaf).

1. Parmesan Tilapia
2. Italian Wedding Soup CASSEROLE




3. Dessert: Cranberry Pear Crisp

Obviously, this wasn't all for the same meal time. They were our 3 dinners plus one night we went out for VDay compliments of his Aunt Tracy and Uncle Will (THANK YOU!!!!).

Let's start with #1. Tilapia. I hate fish, for the most part. But, it is healthy. And delicious-- WHEN you put a yummy Parmesan topping on it and pop it under the broiler. I made 6 fillets and they were all gone. I served it with crisp pea pods and a salad and lemon wedges. I seasoned with Old Bay and some dried basil and took me literally 15 minutes from start to TABLE. Here is the recipe. At just about 200 calories per fillet, it is a great diet food that doesn't taste so diet. AND I EVEN ATE THE FISH! hahah

#2. I made what I THOUGHT was going to be soup, but it turned into a creamy pasta casserole. The recipe was definitely adapted by me to include rotisserie shredded chicken and mom's mini homemade meatballs (instead of the frozen ready to use ones). I also used reduced fat chicken soup and whole wheat pasta. Even if spinach and you don't get along, you will after this! Trust me. Such comfort food. Again, I made several changes mentioned above, but for the basic recipe, click here. Please don't be intimidated by the long list of ingredients!!!

OK, well I'll stop there instead of putting you on recipe overload. But, seriously, if you are looking for 2 new things to make for dinner, TRY these.